Well hello people...

Its a hell alot of time i did not update my journal...damn busy nowadays i dunnoe why...haha...like serious.
There is alot of stuff that happened...evryting seems to be corrupting my peaceful mind....

Ferst there was this girl who appeared in my life so sudden n i did not expect it at all...she came with a lot of probs
i told her not to worry everytin is gonna be fine in time to come, everyting takes time to recover unless ure some mutant that
can recover that fast...haha

Second my worst nighmare came true, the girl i was chasing for quite sometime in secondary school came back into my life,
saying that now she has fallen for me n i dunnoe why now she say this to me...seems pretty messed up huh! me myself am confuse
Damn! I know that we should not have met the other time....now that i have already no feelings for her, she came back running to me..

Thirdly my ex jus started contacting me again, saying that she has just broke up with her current bf which lasted abt 1 year plus i think,
she left me thnking and i kept asking myself why did she came back to me? for wad reason?

That is wad actually happen this past few weeks of my life...other than hanging out with the usual group of frens n busy muggin for ma exams.
And lately i've been watching the series 'HEROES' if u guys know that...u shuld know by now...
Haiz how i wish i posses the powers of one of them...n be special..

OK thats abt it...
Get back to reality soon...hahaha
Ok bye

Hello everyone..
not been updating my blog for quite some time already...
been very busy lately with school stuff and alot of things..

I'm tired of all the games u played, it really drains out my energy thinking and thinking.
So i decided to give up, when the time comes then let it flow, i wont force neither do i rush.
I'll just be waiting and waiting for the time to come..haha no worries at all...

Leading a happy single hood life, not much problems, more crapping with saturday pple(its a must)
Hahaha...something i cant miss, hanging around with saturday people is the best alot of crap is spoken,
a sad and boring day turns into a funny and hilarious day woohoo...:)

So yea thnx for cheering me up, if ever i feel down on saturday's, which i dont  normally show through expression.
Thanx guys appreciate it alot...haha..
But actually most of the time me and azri will do the most crapping..lol!

Hey....been busy lately...hahah... so didnt blog that much or can i say update my lj
Hahaha....school started ....argh! but nehmind its better for me i guess...so i can go out most of the days
Non schooling days i cant go out that much..haha so yeah there are pros and cons..

Ok lets start things out...haha...before the fasting month started alot of things happened actually that has an impact on me...
hahah...to be exact alot of things i pretty much cant list it all...theres too many lol...!!

OK one of it was my birthday which has just passed on the 4th of september, so happy birthday to me
Secondly, i get to know a new girl on the day of my bday itself
Thirdly, i get to shopping for quite alot of times
Fourthly, i get to know another girl by chance and i did not noe how
Fifthly, i did alot of trash talking with my fellow buddies(B4 PUASE LA) LOL!
N the list goes on and on....hahahaha


I was pretty much upset for some period of time, cause i missed u, i called u didnt answer
i msged u didnt reply, u made me worried about you,
i cant sleep properly thinking of you,
Everytime i think of you my hearts beats faster and faster
There;s no answer to why im feeling this way
Only god knows the reason.

Then finally u went online,
i tagged u,
Me: 'hey hello, how  are you?'
You: hey ho, im doin fine
Me: good 4 u then..:)
Me: didnt reply my msgs or calls these few days? Bz uh?
You: Kinda actually studyin n slackin
Me: icic
Me: ehks i miss u sia...haha
You: ya la like long sey neve chat
Me: so u feel the same or no feeling?
You: "OF COURSE I MISS U LA"
Me: Haha ok.....( I WAS DAMN HAPPY LA)<<NOT IN THE CONVO

I was happy u told me that, i didnt expect it at all, i intend it to be a joke
but it turned out to be something unexpected...hehehe...
ok, im done

Haha thats about it, actually got alot more, but i damn lazy to write...haha...

Ah hello!...haha k the whole two days at home was like damn boring...didnt noe wad to do..
So she turn me down for like almost three times including today, what can i do. Nothing much
can be done. I'll just have to bear with it. For this period of time i need to stay calm and relax.

One of the songs i'm hooked to rite now...haha..

"Brown eyes and lungs are filled up with smoke
Fast lives we're stuck in the undertoe
But you know the places I wanna go

'Cause oh oh oh,
I've got a sickness
You've got the cure
You've got the spark I've been lookin' for
And I've got a plan we walk out the door

You wanna just let go,
It's time to roll down the windows
Sing it oh oh oh
We got all we need
So here we go

Turn it up
It's five minutes to midnight
You're coming home with me tonight
I can't get enough, shakin' me up
Turn it up
Alright
At five minutes to midnight
You see our name in city lights
We'll make the clock stop
Make your heart drop
And come alive

We could pack up
And leave all our things behind
No fact, or fiction, or storyline
'Cause I need you more than just for tonight

You're oh oh oh like air
I can't stop my breathing in
I'm weak and you are my medicine
I won't stop till I am under your skin

No you wanna just let go,
It's time to roll down the windows
Sing it oh oh oh
Yeah all we need
So here we go

Turn it up
It's five minutes to midnight
You're coming home with me tonight
I can't get enough, shakin' me up
Turn it up
Alright
At five minutes to midnight
You see our name in city lights
We'll make the clock stop
Make your heart drop
And come alive

And when the clock strikes twelve
Will you find another boy to
Go and kiss and tell
'Cause you know I never will
I think we should strike a match
And we'll hold it to the wind to
See how long it lasts
We can make the time stand still

Turn it up
It's five minutes to midnight
You're coming home with me tonight
I can't get enough, shakin' me up
Turn it up
Alright
At five minutes to midnight
You see our name in city lights
We'll make the clock stop
Make your heart drop
And come alive

Turn it up
It's five minutes to midnight
You're coming home with me tonight
I can't get enough, shakin' me up
Turn it up
Alright
At five minutes to midnight
You see our name in city lights
We'll make the clock stop
Make your heart drop
And come alive"

My day yest, was a damn blardy f(*&*^&d up day i ever had...
At ferst it was like ok we msged as usual, asking what she'd do today
then as pernormal she would as back. She said she was goin out study
i said good 4 u then o's r comin n u shuld like study now..
So, i did not want to msg her for the rest of the day as so nt to disturb
her when she's studyin, but then as usual, if u miss sumone or feel lonely
u will tend to msg rite...haha

So msged her arnd 11++, i didnt expect a reply so yeah it was ok...
Then after that i went online about 12.45...then saw her online, yeah as per
normal she was the one who will always tag me first. So chat with her till abt 1.05am
then my comp battery was running low, so had to shutdown, then i told her that i'll call her later
she replied "u msg me first before calling"....i was like "ok sure no prob"......
Then abt 2am i msged her saying like "u free now, can i call u"...
Then waited like for almost an hour for her reply, but in the end i called.

                                           A very long long ring b4 she pick up the phone.....
                                                       Me: Uh, hello!
                                                       You: U, i call u back later i'm on the fone with a fren
                                                                (Not even replying the hello i gave her, she jus told me that???)
                                                        Me: Ouh, ok bye then. (hang up the phone)


I was very upset then she could like easily reply my msg rite saying, hey i'm not free to talk to u rite now, bluffing her way
saying that she is not in a good mood, rather than me waiting for almost an hour for her reply(which she never reply) and then
calling her just to find out that  " i call u back later, i'm on the fone with a fren"
Haiz, i'm like WTF....

I just dont know where our frenship will end seriously, at one point of time, i felt like i want to totally give up. And let
fate to decide it all. I think i'm gonna do that n join iryan, living a happy life, with no worries. EH YAN BETOL TAK!

Now that i have been contacting this girl for quite some time...at least for like a month long or so...
Suddenly this afternoon, i got this msg saying like:
"Black Rose - 4 an enemy
 Pink Rose - 4 a special fren
 White Rose - 4 the 1 u care
 Red rose - 4 the 1 u luv"

I went blank for a moment, when i saw the msg. It was from a gerl i previously known and we have not been msging each other
for quite some time, due to ma exams as well as hers. And to  makes things more complicated is that i had a crush on her
the other time, and now its like kinda over, but i can't explain the feeling now for her haha..

And the funny thing is, if u have read my previous post...i had already moved on to liking another girl which i am pursuing now
damn i hate this kinda situation it makes me go bonkers i tell you....

Ok if you think that i like move on very fast with another girl or can say an eye candy, youre wrong cos i said the previous girl i knew i was just
having a CRUSH on her, thats all nothing more, a crush is a crush all of us get over it very fast. hhahahaha...okok

OK enough of the thoughts back to the msg i gt, i replied "Pink Rose" cos at one point of time we were very close and we shared with each other the problems we had and both of us were comfartable with that so yeah....

Hmm...now that the other came back into the picture, it puts me in a dilemma. Should i instead love the one that i once had crush with and feeling quite secure with that or should i continue with loving the new one, not knowing whether does she loves me and nothing is to be guaranteed.

I wish she knew everyting that my heart is gona say out to her...but that would be like impossible..
Haiz.....i'm like so damn stressed up now....wad shuld i do...can someone like pls help me.....
ARGH!!!!......

I feel like the whole world evolves arnd her n i cant do anyting much about that.....
Come on, PLS say something like YOU LIKE ME TOO or mayb I KINDA LIKE YOU
OK...that is like nt goin to happen la....

You left me hangin there without any strings attached, i lay lifeless waitin for your call, ur msgs
which was i who always started it first...y cant u even like once msg me even saying a HI!...i'll be more than happy..
Or maybe i'm jus like some any other guy that u played....

No matter wad...i'll still be waitin for you....if u jus give me the chance to love u with all my heart,
and i'll promise i'll take care and cherish u till death do us apart...

Jus a simple Hi...is all i am waitin for.....it will make me more than happy....

What do you do when then the person who makes u fall in love with someone else, is the person whom u love the most?

Hmmm......

This past few days was like damn freaking bored sitting at hm....
but nehmind la sit at home also good...haha i can sleep..lol!

The past few nights were great...i did talk to her on the phone till late mornin
It was a blast...really had a fun tym with her on the phone....the mixed feeling still linger though in my mind...
I'm in a dillema now...what should i do man...some say go for it, some say just chill n wait...

But the fact is i hate goin for it cos i'm really scared of the outcome...i'm sick of chillin n wait as well cos
we might nt noe things might turn out if we wait a little longer.....DAMN!!!!

Nvm i think i gonna try to solve it asap...so as not to confused myself...

What the eye doesn't see the heart doesn't grieve over..

Hey evryone....i just created my lj....haha seems like kewl haha so i made an account.....
So here it goes....hmmmmmmmmm.......

Did alot of crappng these few days chillin out with ma frens enjoyin life after ma exams.....so yeah....
currently meeting sumone, think that she's kinda cute, but hmmmm.....should i or shoild i not.....
i have many failed attempts already and now kinda sick and tired of goin through the whole process again...haiz....

Maybe she is the one for me maybe she is not...but not thinkin about it too much just relaxing for now after exams which is much more important for me.....hahaha...

Btw went to watch fireworks with ma family jus now, it was a blast....

OK now my lappy com bat is running low so catch you guys some time later...haha bye!